Holiday Chronicles - Trainer

I am a 34 year old woman who has been married for 8 years. My husband and I are the same age and we are parents to three kids ranging in age from 2 – 7. Our marriage is great for the most part, but I am definitely the “hotter” one in the relationship. A major cause of annoyance for me is the fact that my husband treats me like a trophy wife—parading me around at events, grabbing my butt in public, and packing on ridiculous amounts of PDA. It’s like, “you know I love you! Why do you have to always overdo it?” I consider myself a classy woman and I hate him drawing all that extra attention to me. I get tons of stares from other men, and while I am flattered by it, I generally ignore it and keep it pushing. I’m not going to be out in the streets, risking my family.

I was a cheerleader in college and still work very hard to keep myself in good shape, but after 3 kids and the stresses of raising a family as a stay at home mom, I have put on a few pounds. I recently started seeing a female trainer who was recommended by a friend. For the past three months, I have been meeting Crystal* at the gym four mornings a week for full body routines. After two weeks I upgraded to a higher level of service that included short stretching and massage sessions performed by her after each workout.

During the 4^th massage, I noticed Crystal paid more attention to my inner thighs. I thought it was a little weird but I didn’t complain because it actually felt incredible on my sore muscles. The next session she brushed my side-boobs multiple times. She never said a word, just looked at me and smiled. I am not ashamed to say that I had a few crushes on some of the cute female athletes I was constantly around during my college days on the cheer squad, but I never acted on anything like that.

I found Crystal to be a very attractive woman, thin and svelte but toned with nice curves. The way she handled my body seemed very sensual as well. With a renewed sense of adventure, I vowed that if Crystal made another pass at me, I would take it and run with it. Nothing happened for the next few days, and I began to worry that I had done something to turn her off or had acted too disinterested. She even seemed distracted during our next few workouts.

The next Monday at the end of my session, while I was laying on my back getting my rubdown, I looked up at Crystal and brushed the back of my hand across her exposed stomach. She looked down at my hand in surprise, but when she shot me a glance I just smiled. “What are you doing?”, she asked, laughing. “Nothing”, I said. I ran my fingers across her stomach again. This time, we locked eyes, both frozen in animation. She walked over and closed the door to the room we were in, and strolled back over to the table where I was lying, hands behind her back. She looked down at me, still on my back, and with a devious grin asked, “what do you want?” I pulled together all the confidence I could muster and said, “you!” She shot one more glance back at the closed door then jumped on top of me. She was aggressive and I loved it. We had a heavy kissing and grinding session, but didn’t want to get caught so we went to her place, which was 10 minutes away. Once inside she ripped off my athletic-wear and we went into the shower. As the hot water fell on us she kissed me sensually, slowly working her way down until she was on her knees with her tongue and fingers between my legs.

I had never experienced anything like this but I knew I wanted more. From there on we started a torrid affair. We went to her place almost every day after my sessions. I hired this gorgeous woman to help me tighten things up…and boy has she ever! I think about her all day and night, even when having sex with my husband. Now to my dilemma: she knows I have a family, but she has already told me she loves me. What’s scary is that didn’t even phase me. I have seen the friend who introduced me and Crystal and I am paranoid that Crystal will tell her what is going on. I don’t want to lose my marriage, but I don’t want this relationship with Crystal to end. At this stage I don’t feel guilty at all. I guess my only option is to keep doing what I am doing. If I keep everyone happy, no one will suspect a thing, right?

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